Levi's Birthday ~ October 11 ~

Tomorrow is Levi's birthday. I miss him so much I feel I can hardly bear it. Four years ago today I was in labor, awaiting the birth of our child whom I'd learned had already left us the day before. I'll never forget his still image on that ultrasound. I hate ultrasounds to this day and probably always will. I cannot look at one without seeing our little baby boy lying there motionless and knowing it was over, knowing there was absolutely nothing I could do to save him.