Kailey's tree is dying. I feel like Charlie Brown when he said, "I killed it!! Oh, everything I touch is ruined," or some similar comment he makes when he thinks he's killed the little Christmas tree.
I was warned not to plant a tree for Kailey by an acquaintance that has lost a daughter. She said "How will you feel if it dies", and I thought, oh, I'll be okay with it; it's so insignificant compared to my losses.
Yet, looking out and seeing the tree dying, just saddens me so. I feel like I can't do anything right. I know it's just where I'm at right now......... everything I touch doesn't
really die. It just feels that way today.
